No matter how hard I try to put everything in God’s hands,the press of life distracts me and distances him. No—he doesn’t distance himself from me—never would God do such a thing. He loves me too much. I know this—fervently—without doubt—no strings attached. God is the One in whom all things are created, sustained, and made new again.
Unfailing faith in and love with God informs me as I travel toward the Holy City. Still, there are pitfalls requiring perseverance.Sometimes, when I think I’m persevering, I’m not. I know this is true, because if I persevered well, the melancholy and misery wouldn’t be so acute.
Traveling toward the Holy City is a daunting road of miracles and misery: delight and drudgery: triumph and tragedy: solace and sorrow:comfort and consternation: activity and apathy. Opposing emotional responses to life are as if I experience light, darkness, more light, and more darkness several times in one day. The resultant exhaustion visits me when I most need it—a gift from God.
He wraps me up in his loving arms and puts me to sleep. Each new day brings his hope for tomorrow. Not my hope, not my husband’s hope, not the hope other people talk about. It’s God’s hope flowing into me through his Spirit and the teachings of his Son. They all—the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit—transport me to higher ground, tilled and ready. Prepared in advance, this ground is accepting of all emotional responses to life. Only when I make a planned layover on the high ground that God has prepared for me, do I find clarity, comfort, consciousness, and comprehension.
It’s as if God is wrapping me into his priestly, lavish garments of love, mercy, and grace. Praise God that, even when I turn away during difficult times, he still pampers, protects, and prepares me to enter the Holy City at his designated time.
Strength and dignity are gifts that come from knowing the Loving God. His pleasure in me, as one of his children, provides endurance for the race of a life that is favorable in his eyes. Nevertheless, knowing that I disappoint him I find his love, mercy, and grace always there before me, no matter what life brings my way.
That’s why I want to swaddle 2019 in God’s love, mercy,and grace.